Bailey’s Story
When I found out I was pregnant for the first time in May, I was so excited. The thought of becoming a parent made me so happy, and I couldn't believe how connected I already felt to them even though they were so small. I started planning for their arrival in the two months to follow; securing a spot at a daycare we loved, writing them letters in a journal for them to have one day, and dreaming of the soon reality of becoming a parent and knowing them deeply. I couldn't believe how much I loved them without having met them.
At my first appointment, the doctor told me everything looked great and I got to hear their heartbeat. I had no idea it would be the last time. Two weeks later, when I started bleeding at work, I was in complete shock. When I went in the next day for an ultrasound and saw the line go across the screen with no heartbeat, it confirmed what I knew was true in my head but didn't yet believe in my heart.
The days and weeks to follow were hard, confusing, and painful in ways I wasn't prepared for. I wrote the last entry in the journal I had started for them, saying goodbye.
One poem really resonated with how I was feeling was,
"To think we would've known everything about each other and then knew nothing is the biggest heartache of all" - A.J.
I've found comfort in knowing that in the 10 weeks they were with me, they were loved to the fullest extent. While at times it can be confusing to grieve an early pregnancy loss in a society that doesn't often know how to talk about miscarriage, I've been so thankful for the love and support I've received from many friends and family. I appreciate both them and WWY for recognizing the life of my baby and offering meaningful support and resources as I continue my grieving process.
- Bailey Finney
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